A Dilemma of the Heart. In Need of A Special Lady!
I am in a dilemma and need to express myself so as not to explode from within. I am a gentleman that has found himself in a position that I had not quite prepared for.
I had a wonderful and simple life after a previous time of chaos and confusion. I had found an amazing woman that I was completely satisfied with and we both embraced the other without discomfort of any kind. We didn't live together, but rather there was just enough distance between us for us to always appreciate and relish one another's company as we grew closer in genuine love and respect. We spoke every day and never took lightly our mutual commitment and were planning a future of being together throughout the rest of this world or our lives. Little did we know that the wickedness of imperfection had mapped out other plans for us! Though we were both God fearing people, that did not exempt us from undergoing trials or suffering, however it helped us to prepare to better cope in some respects. Our happiness would be cut short by unforeseen occurrences. Within six months of finally being diagnosed, after years of being misdiagnosed, her life ended and my heart and soul was damaged by grief! With loving support from friends and my love for the goodness from God's blessings I have managed to be positive as I look ahead towards the future.
Why am I telling these things. It's because I desire a special woman who would not be replacing, rather adding to my life. I hate the loneliness that I experience at the end of the day. My evenings into the early morning are often sleepless and restless. I am a realistic man and I am aware of loss, death, sacrifice and what suffering is all about. Of course, before the actual death of my lady I was well aware that I would be left alone but prayed not to loose the hope of happiness in my future. In the Holy Scriptures, after a reasonable time of grieving, God permits a man or a woman to move forward and to remarry and thereby not being overtaken by the loss as to loose yourself. Although memories of her still exist and I can never forget how wonderful we were together, I also realize that she is gone, and in spite of the pain I need to go on and try to live my life as best that I can. So I have the desire and hopefully the blessings to find love again.
I am a giving man who nurtures and attends to my woman in every way that I can within the limits of what I have to give. I never wait for her to do for me if it's in my power to take the initiative by doing and caring for her. I adore making my woman happy. I listen and observe so I can learn exactly what it is I can do to bring her joy. The most important person in my life, second only to God himself, is my woman! It is she and I that He, God, will bless and yoke together and then bonds our hearts in the sacredness of the union. I am a romantic man who enjoys creating atmospheres that stimulate affection, comfort and security. I never ask more than I am willing to give of myself. I respect my woman and always include her in every decision in my life, as her love, acceptance and approval are vital to the success of our relationship. As a man I need the love and affection along with the approval of my woman, and I also realize the value of always letting her know how special she is to me. I have never worried about physiy or sexually satisfying her because I had learned long ago that the largest sex organ of a woman is her brain, and if she is nurtured, spoiled, loved and cared for outside of the bedroom in a loving manor then sexual intimacy with climactic completion is usually not a problem to achieve!
So what I am looking for is a sincere and loving woman who is capable of tenderness, loving kindness, and is available to be loved without the fears or emotional restrictions of lacking trust. She should have the right amount of humility to realize that we both are not merely physiy involved but are also under a spiritual arrangement before God and true love goes beyond seeking ones own interest! I am patient and thoughtful, strong yet tender, persistent yet gentle. I am lonely for a true companion in the form of a complement to me, as I would be to her. Someone who is not afraid of commitment so we can spend the proper time together growing in our understanding, appreciation and love for one another. I tend to be a tactile man but discreet and careful. I miss kissing, cuddling and communicating more than I can say. I am a man of color who doesn't see color, though I am aware of the dynamics that can exist between the races! I am 6' 1" tall, about 215 lbs, with black hair, brown eyes and I am in my late 50's and I am semi-retired from an interesting yet very stressful profession. My health is good and I have no diseases. I am not promiscuous and believe in monogamy. I also have a set of morals and ethics that have served me well for many years and I will continue to observe and live by them. You as my woman would not be forced to embrace any of my beliefs, however if you find my qualities intriguing or desirable I would only ask that you look into them with an open mind and heart, as they are the beliefs that make me who I am! I would not want you to change for me, rather I would hope you are desirous of a change for yourself, and being with me would stimulate that desire and offer you the opportunity to experience something new and refreshing! That would make you special to me!
You should be as I am; genuine, caring, loving and tender with just enough sensuality to leave me desiring to know so much more about who you are as a woman. As I have indicated, I am in my late 50's and have raised children and at this stage in life cannot be second place to your children, if there are any. I am by no means a selfish man but I am more than familiar with what makes a relationship special, and at my age I am not looking to raise any more children. The future is going to be very interesting as these days unfold and I need a grounded woman to be by my side as we help one another make it through the days ahead.
Please only respond if you completely can relate to my expressions, and that you have the ability and the means to carry on a growing relationship with a man such as myself. If you have questions or need clarity on what I have expressed only reply if you are genuinely interested, so as not to waste my time or yours. If you decide to reply, please no one line questions or requests for a picture. I must know a little about you in order to trust who you are, just as you should feel the same about me. I have revealed certain intimate matters and though you can be discreet, I would like to know about who you are as a woman, so please describe yourself, your desires and intrigues.
Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts, and I'll look forward in hearing from you if your interest has been piqued.
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